Dear You,

This is about to get very nonsense, ridiculous, and everything weird combined. I did not know who you are, I did not know how you did that and I did not know why am I acting like this.

I think, I guess, that I am certain I like you. Whoever you are, everytime I saw you I get this nervous feeling that tingles around my stomach. It was twisted but in a good way. My face will automatically becomes concrete and of course my body feels like its frozen all over. 

Whatever that means, or supposed to mean, I am certain I like you. When does this started? First day of Fall? Maybe it was the first day I saw you. It was my very first time falling on someone so hard that I reaaaaallllyyyy turned my head around to look at you again.

Ah, yes, I know, everytime the semester ended, I will get over my crush for that semester. Hell, not even till the sem ends, I will be already over anyone I was crushing on. But not this time. (My crush did not even deserve a public confess, not even on twitter)

BUT LOOK AT YOU, YOU ARE HERE.

I have always noticed you, I have always craned my head to every inches of ADP, looking if you were there, where I was standing, so I can feel myself smiling, feeling great to have to meeting you, at least once, on that day.

You were always there, at 12 in the afternoon, waiting for your friends to have your lunch together. 

You were always there, before 2pm class, hanging out at the ADP entrance, engrossed with your phone. 

You were always there, after 3, when the class ends, walking out from ADP with your friends. 

This is my last semester, and I am pretty sure it is your first. And not only that, I only see you three days a week. Kalau bad luck tak jumpa langsung. Hahahahaha nangis ! Haih, is this the thing that they said so near yet so far. You are just so, so, decent, that no other words fits you better. But there was something that did not go unnoticed, you look so young. SO YOUNG that I thought you might be not more than 19yo. You look like youre 18 or something. (Look can be deceiving kan haish)

That was a real heartbreak, though, there is nothing real to break. ANYWAYS, I know and quite certain and hoping that this will pass. This feeling should be reallllyyyy temporary (like other crushes I have got over after a while). Am I being egoist haha tak kot, just want to keep everything at a Ive-Got-it-Under-Control length.

Whoever you are, I met you three times on this date, and that was among my happiest day this semester.

I was plotting gazzziillliioooonnnn plans on how to talk to you, but I'll just do things I have never done; sit at a corner, look at you and wonder how would it be to be yours. Sometimes things like this is fun. So I can keep you as a good memory. 

Dear whoever you are, if youre reading this, I hope that youre happy, even though with that happiness comes your smile, and it kills me.

(sigh, I could make a super duper sweet girlfriend, rugi takda boyfriend hahaha)
(no thats not a hint ke apa apa ke I just nak bagitahu as a matter of fact hahaha)
(ok bye)